Yesterday I realized how much I have been shutdown and closed in my own cocoon without any idea of what is going around, for almost a month. Work,books,movies and music along with basic living necessities. That is all I have been doing. I haven't switched on my TV for more than a month now. Not only in Hyderabad but also in Bangalore. I even forgot to recharge it.
First it was my brother who called up from Bangalore saying that there is a bandh against the petrol hike for two days (two days) and I was in office without a slightest clue about it. Because it was hardly anything like bandh in Hyderabad. And the past two days didn't have a slightest impact what so ever here for us. But guess in Bangalore it was different because people have been working from home, to be on the safer side. And then yesterday when I was having my official call @ 7.30 pm, I was getting calls from my friends and family repeated. Then my brother in law came online to ask me how the situation was. I was not aware of any situation that needed my attention, except my current official call of course. That is when he told that there had been some blasts in Hyderabad and that things were on high alert. I was dumbfounded. I never realized that I was that closed from the world I am living. I never really liked watching the news, because it gets to me to see the way they exaggerate things so I had taken to glancing to papers occasionally. But for a couple of weeks now, even that got reduced. I did not even reply to him for some time. Because I had to respond to something in the call. He as usual knew that I never knew about the blasts. He was the first to inform me. After the call ended, I called my friend (thanks to you dear) and my parents to inform them that I am ok and safe in my place.
But yet, I am here in office working as usual, as if nothing happened. It is a bit sad that there is nothing I feel for these kind of things anymore. This is not the first blast in a city where I have been, in fact I have been there and heard a blast very near to my house during the famous Coimbatore blasts...That itself did not terrorize us, with a car full of bomb that would explode anytime. So this did not have any impact at all. Its sad that many people died in this and I still don't have a clue as to why and what happened. I did not feel the need to switch on the TV even now. I read some details in the paper before coming to office. I had long stopped feeling guilty about a lot of things and I know that this makes me a little selfish, but I guess I should at least know a little about what is happening around. Time to look around a bit.
First it was my brother who called up from Bangalore saying that there is a bandh against the petrol hike for two days (two days) and I was in office without a slightest clue about it. Because it was hardly anything like bandh in Hyderabad. And the past two days didn't have a slightest impact what so ever here for us. But guess in Bangalore it was different because people have been working from home, to be on the safer side. And then yesterday when I was having my official call @ 7.30 pm, I was getting calls from my friends and family repeated. Then my brother in law came online to ask me how the situation was. I was not aware of any situation that needed my attention, except my current official call of course. That is when he told that there had been some blasts in Hyderabad and that things were on high alert. I was dumbfounded. I never realized that I was that closed from the world I am living. I never really liked watching the news, because it gets to me to see the way they exaggerate things so I had taken to glancing to papers occasionally. But for a couple of weeks now, even that got reduced. I did not even reply to him for some time. Because I had to respond to something in the call. He as usual knew that I never knew about the blasts. He was the first to inform me. After the call ended, I called my friend (thanks to you dear) and my parents to inform them that I am ok and safe in my place.
But yet, I am here in office working as usual, as if nothing happened. It is a bit sad that there is nothing I feel for these kind of things anymore. This is not the first blast in a city where I have been, in fact I have been there and heard a blast very near to my house during the famous Coimbatore blasts...That itself did not terrorize us, with a car full of bomb that would explode anytime. So this did not have any impact at all. Its sad that many people died in this and I still don't have a clue as to why and what happened. I did not feel the need to switch on the TV even now. I read some details in the paper before coming to office. I had long stopped feeling guilty about a lot of things and I know that this makes me a little selfish, but I guess I should at least know a little about what is happening around. Time to look around a bit.
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