Recently (3-4 months ago), I got back my books (which were almost lost to me.. don't ask me why or how, yet... will tell you sometime when things are really over) and among them was my diary in which I used to write all the songs which I used to sing ( movies, bhajans and some poems). When I was very young, I loved to sing.. but will not be able to remember the lyrics of the song.. so I would use just lalalalala...imagine using the same word for the whole song. Guess my dad would have got real sick of it :) because he called me one day and said.. if you really want to sing.. why don't you memorize the song or write it down and sing it. It was really a long long time ago..And that is how I have got almost 3 diaries full of songs :) two of them are with my sister in a very bad shape (termite problems) and one is with me. Then I started writing down the poems and also small texts from books/papers which I liked. When I saw this diary recently, I was so overwhelmed. I thought I will share some of my favorites here
Poison Tree (I think this was in a class text book, if my memory serves me right..but I love this poem)
I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
And I water'd it in fears,
Night & morning with my tears,
And I summoned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.
And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright,
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine.
And into my garden stole
When the night had veil'd the pole:
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretch'd beneath the tree.
-William Blake
To A Friend (This is something which my best friend in school wrote in my diary and she had a beautiful picture along with it..She used to draw very well.)
When someone is as much
a part of someone's life
as you are of mine,
its all too easy
to take them for granted,
But, I don't want to do that
I just want to tell you
how grateful I am
for the million and one
little things you do to make
my life so much nicer.
You have always managed
to remain loyal to me
even at times when
other people would have
thrown their hands up
in despair.
You have been willing to make
yourself look silly in order to
coax a smile our of me
on a bad day.
You've lived my joys
and heartaches
as if they were your own.
For these and all
the other wonderful,
caring qualities
that makes you 'YOU'
thanks.
I'm glad you're in my life
and will be in my life
forever.
Miss you (This was written by one of my colleague in my first organization...and it got published in our internal journal..I liked it a lot, so I had this written down..)
I turn to my side to share a joke
Bubbling with laughter and joy
Alas to find a stranger staring at me
I laugh at a joke that we shared
I remember the times that we spent
Those fun filled moments I cherish
All these things make me realize
How very much I miss you
There were times that I feel
I took you just for granted
Those loving words of comfort
Those embracing hands of love
Those loving eyes of concern
All these things make me confess
How very much I need you
Having you with me again
Is all that I look forward to
Every second of which I have planned
To enjoy to the fullest
I wish and hope from the depths of my heart
That my dreams would be fulfilled
I'll take that opportunity to say
How very much 'I Love You'
[She was so much in love when wrote this.. I wish she had a happy ending to her story :) ]
Tears
......It is strange that tears should be considered a sign of weakness. They often mean the opposite.... Humans weep at mental and emotional hurts as well: Tears in us are a sign of sensitivity, which is strength to anyone at all affected by poetry.....
When I die (I probably have written this in my earlier post...its one of my favorite by Kamala Das)
When I die
Do not throw the meat and
bones away
But pile them up
and
Let them tell
by their smell
What Life was worth
on this earth
and what Love was worth
in the end.
Precious
"All precious things in life are less in number", explained one disciple to the visitor, giving him examples of gold and iron, diamond and coal, good and bad traits.
The Master overheard the disciple's sermon. He remarked,"All precious things are not less in number in this world, but all things which are less in number become precious. And that is the tendency of the human mind".
The Suicide (by Kamala Das)
I tell you, Sea,
I have enough courage to die,
But not enough,
Not enough to disobey him
Who said: Do not die
And hurt me that certain way.
Many more are in Thamizh.. May be I will have a separate post for it sometime. :) Bye for now.