Months of April & May 2008 were the most depressing period of my life, because those were the two months when I had been the saddest for the longest time in my life, till now. I can never be sad for more than a day or max of 2 days. But those two months were just unbearable. That is when I decided that if I continue one more day like this, I would have to kill myself and that is just not me. So I did something that I never thought I would do in my entire life. Start a Blog.
My bro had a blog at that time which he rarely used. And I was not much of a blogger (reader /writer) until then. I like to write. I even had a diary in my school days, but did not last long as my mom discovered it and I had to stop.. Well, I had scolded her in it coz she had chided me for something and once she saw it I got scolded again.. Was a big anti climax.. so stopped it. I decided to venture in to this unknown territory because of one reason. I needed a channel for letting out my thoughts, my feelings and keep it strictly private. And when I am ready to let it go, I can let my friends know about it. Family - well no one reads a blog.... but yes they are in FB though.. That is how this blog happened.
After almost 4 years and 1 month, I wonder at the fact of how much this blog has mattered to me over these years. I have very short term memory.. I cannot remember what happened say 5-6 years before, unless it has affected me in some way or the other. And even in those cases, I prefer to remember the moral of the story and not the story..
I have done enough travels down south (even though max of them have been to temple towns...) but I dont remember them now, unless I look @ the old photos. With this blog, I am able to record my travels and happy to remember those good moments.
I read books and watch movies, a lot. But when some book or movie impresses me, I prefer to remember them for their lines or performances. With this blog, I could write about them and have a record of what I had read or watched and why I liked them.
Then the IPL matches happened. I guess at times, the excitement of the matches (especially CSK) comes to my posts too. I like reading about those moments again.
Sometimes, a small topic that we discuss for the sake of time passing, could open up lot of thoughts within us and when that happens to me, I use this blog to pen down my thoughts. That is a big let out for me actually. Because I cannot find people who might be of the same wavelength to discuss those issues or who might be able to accept a broader perspective of things, but with the posts you can let it out and not bother about the outcome of it.... because its a simplex communication mode...
Until 3 years before, if my memory serves me right, no one knew about this blog. Some were even surprised that I have a blog. That is when I was really ready to let some of my friends know about it. I already told you naa.. I am little slow with people.. Recently, when I was writing something, my colleague saw that I was writing a post (courtesy..my new place and the 17 inch monitor) and was asking me about my blog. I told him that it was meant to be private and I am not going to share it unless and until I feel like it. He got pissed off a bit, but since he had no other go, just let it go. And during a official lunch he communicated to the team that I write a blog but was not willing to share it. Well I said the same thing that I told him ,again, to everyone. And that is when everyone asked me if I was on FB (facebook). When I said no, they were like 'What!! you write a blog, but you are not on FB..thats ridiculous'. I fail to understand what can be ridiculous in this. I am not a very social person. I dont have time for friending, unfriending or checking or updating the status of people or communicate what I do every second of my life to the world. I know FB can be used for other better reasons too..But I am not that person.
This blog has helped in improve my vocabulary little bit more and have introduced me to some good blogs which I follow, even though I know not many of them in that list. I happened to read them my chance, liked their posts and so follow them. Some of them are my friends and I like to follow them (and I hope that they keep writing more :D ...)
When I decided to start this blog, I never knew I will come this far. This blog gave me enough confidence to try out other things in life, which I would never have done otherwise. First of all was the guitar class that I joined during August 2008 or so. And then I did a lot of other things and I try to venture into new territories every year as much as possible.
But, it all started here... in this blog, and this is something I hope to continue through my twilight years.... I hope so atleast.
Ciao...
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[Updated on 22-June-2012]
Yday night for some reason, it stuck me that my blog was more like a Pensieve (just like the one in Harry Potter's life). So changed my post title today to reflect that..
My bro had a blog at that time which he rarely used. And I was not much of a blogger (reader /writer) until then. I like to write. I even had a diary in my school days, but did not last long as my mom discovered it and I had to stop.. Well, I had scolded her in it coz she had chided me for something and once she saw it I got scolded again.. Was a big anti climax.. so stopped it. I decided to venture in to this unknown territory because of one reason. I needed a channel for letting out my thoughts, my feelings and keep it strictly private. And when I am ready to let it go, I can let my friends know about it. Family - well no one reads a blog.... but yes they are in FB though.. That is how this blog happened.
After almost 4 years and 1 month, I wonder at the fact of how much this blog has mattered to me over these years. I have very short term memory.. I cannot remember what happened say 5-6 years before, unless it has affected me in some way or the other. And even in those cases, I prefer to remember the moral of the story and not the story..
I have done enough travels down south (even though max of them have been to temple towns...) but I dont remember them now, unless I look @ the old photos. With this blog, I am able to record my travels and happy to remember those good moments.
I read books and watch movies, a lot. But when some book or movie impresses me, I prefer to remember them for their lines or performances. With this blog, I could write about them and have a record of what I had read or watched and why I liked them.
Then the IPL matches happened. I guess at times, the excitement of the matches (especially CSK) comes to my posts too. I like reading about those moments again.
Sometimes, a small topic that we discuss for the sake of time passing, could open up lot of thoughts within us and when that happens to me, I use this blog to pen down my thoughts. That is a big let out for me actually. Because I cannot find people who might be of the same wavelength to discuss those issues or who might be able to accept a broader perspective of things, but with the posts you can let it out and not bother about the outcome of it.... because its a simplex communication mode...
Until 3 years before, if my memory serves me right, no one knew about this blog. Some were even surprised that I have a blog. That is when I was really ready to let some of my friends know about it. I already told you naa.. I am little slow with people.. Recently, when I was writing something, my colleague saw that I was writing a post (courtesy..my new place and the 17 inch monitor) and was asking me about my blog. I told him that it was meant to be private and I am not going to share it unless and until I feel like it. He got pissed off a bit, but since he had no other go, just let it go. And during a official lunch he communicated to the team that I write a blog but was not willing to share it. Well I said the same thing that I told him ,again, to everyone. And that is when everyone asked me if I was on FB (facebook). When I said no, they were like 'What!! you write a blog, but you are not on FB..thats ridiculous'. I fail to understand what can be ridiculous in this. I am not a very social person. I dont have time for friending, unfriending or checking or updating the status of people or communicate what I do every second of my life to the world. I know FB can be used for other better reasons too..But I am not that person.
This blog has helped in improve my vocabulary little bit more and have introduced me to some good blogs which I follow, even though I know not many of them in that list. I happened to read them my chance, liked their posts and so follow them. Some of them are my friends and I like to follow them (and I hope that they keep writing more :D ...)
When I decided to start this blog, I never knew I will come this far. This blog gave me enough confidence to try out other things in life, which I would never have done otherwise. First of all was the guitar class that I joined during August 2008 or so. And then I did a lot of other things and I try to venture into new territories every year as much as possible.
But, it all started here... in this blog, and this is something I hope to continue through my twilight years.... I hope so atleast.
Ciao...
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[Updated on 22-June-2012]
Yday night for some reason, it stuck me that my blog was more like a Pensieve (just like the one in Harry Potter's life). So changed my post title today to reflect that..
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