I trust you...

God.. so much is happening @ so little time. I keep thinking of writing about this and that..but end up doing nothing, just thinking. Well something happened today that made me write (finally!!!). 
How many times have you had people come up to you and say "Hey listen, I want to tell you something ..(and they tell you about their thing..) .. and also you know what.. you are the only one I thought of sharing it with.... can you have it with yourself and not let anyone else know unless I let this information out by myself, whenever I feel like it?" It need not be the same sentence but you get the point right? You might also have done the same thing to your best friend or the only one you trust. How many times have you breached the trust and how many time people have dumped your trust ? 


I know that I have taken care of their trust to my best level possible. I think I might have slipped a few times, but none have them have harmed or hurt anyone. (that isnt an excuse for me though...) That doesnt mean that people dont trust me with important stuff... Also I have friends whom I have trusted with some very important information and they have upheld my trust so well that I really am glad to have them as my friends (and I did lose some of them too.. sadly) But if the one important person of your life breaches the trust and if some thing you didn't want to share just goes around the very people you did not want to share with (just becoz it might hurt them to know about it..)... let me tell you.. that hurts really bad.. it hurts you so bad that you feel this awful pain near your chest.. (wait..isnt that the heart?) and a big stone rolling between your chest and your stomach.. you feel like puking but you cannot.. coz nothing is gonna come out. Its just, pure disgust.. I know, its just too intense..but that is how it pains.. 


Breaching the code of trust.. that is a very awful thing to do, according to me. I know that not all of them are serious matters that need to be withheld with the help of Knight Templar's. But you are the better judge of it.  It might be a small thing to you..but for the person to whom it matters?


When this person came to me today and said such a thing, all I thought of how I did the same thing to a person and how I got dumped... I intend to keep this persons's trust , not for anything , but for the very person's trust in me. That is how I see it. If they deem to see me fit to upheld their information, I must be truly happy about it.. shouldn't I ?


And for the record, I did hate this person who breached my trust with all my heart and soul. My screams of agony that day, when I learnt about it, would have reached the skies... had it not been for a small young kind hearted soul who was barely 3 yrs old and who was by my side just to give me comfort without saying a word to me when all I did was cry..but its been a long time now. And I don't care about it anymore. Now that its no longer a secret, I have one less thing to care about. 


But next time think twice before you are about to breach someone's trust on you. It does mean a lot, may be not now, but definitely later.


Well now that I have let it out.. I feel much better.. 


Ok.. now to some nice things.. I saw Crazy Heart recently and I liked it immensely. I liked the songs
"Fallin' and Flyin'", "Hold on You" , "I Dont Know" and "Gone, Gone, Gone" very much. When you get a chance do hear it. 


Also I happen to see this movie No Country for Old Men very recently. Too much blood. But a good one :) I like one line from that movie The more time you spend trying to get back what was lost, the more time just goes out the door (I believe in this personally...)


Also the "The Girl with the Dragon Tatoo" both in English and Swedish. Both were good.. really good. even though they ended up different. Honestly I liked the Swedish version more. 
That is all for now..  buenas noches.. 

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter: 
"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river." The little girl said:
"No, Dad. You hold my hand." 
"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father. 

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. 
"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go." 

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...