Its been too long since I had a panic attack like the one I had yesterday night. The whole house is asleep and peaceful, but something is closing in on me and I am unable to breathe. I am feeling too hot to even breathe and my chest feels heavier. I wake up with a start only to realize that I am trying to touch my left leg and I find something else strong closing it. I really really want to touch my skin where I got hurt but I am unable to and I try to break the mold. That is when I realize that I am panicking over the fact that the plaster of Paris that I got done yesterday morning (during a review with the doctor here in Coimbatore). It is restricting me in a way where my normal crepe bandage did not do and I dont like it one bit.
You would have known the circumstances that led me to wear this damn thing. If not, here it is. Is there any word for feeling panicky over something like this? I don't like things that stifle me. Main reason for my over sized baggy type clothes. I feel like it is cutting off the air from my lungs even if it is slightly tight and I don't give a damn for propriety or looks. I need comfort first. I was doing fine with the crepe bandage and the holder that the doc gave me earlier and after a week I felt that the pain had indeed reduced a bit and the swelling to come down. But according to the doc here, if it had been p.o.p (plaster of Paris) then it would have half healed by now. So he has me on this for next two weeks. I don't know how I am gonna manage this. If I get more panic attacks like this, I am gonna break it on my own and go for the crepe bandage if that means it would take another 2 weeks to heal. I need my sanity.
You would have known the circumstances that led me to wear this damn thing. If not, here it is. Is there any word for feeling panicky over something like this? I don't like things that stifle me. Main reason for my over sized baggy type clothes. I feel like it is cutting off the air from my lungs even if it is slightly tight and I don't give a damn for propriety or looks. I need comfort first. I was doing fine with the crepe bandage and the holder that the doc gave me earlier and after a week I felt that the pain had indeed reduced a bit and the swelling to come down. But according to the doc here, if it had been p.o.p (plaster of Paris) then it would have half healed by now. So he has me on this for next two weeks. I don't know how I am gonna manage this. If I get more panic attacks like this, I am gonna break it on my own and go for the crepe bandage if that means it would take another 2 weeks to heal. I need my sanity.
